4.22.2008

It's Only Just Begun

My week has progressively gotten worse. . . and it is only Tuesday!!! Now before I start my post, I need to ask people to keep any bad thoughts or comments to themselves. I have debated whether or not I wanted to post about this. . . but it's my journal and this is what is going on in my life right now. So please do not judge too harshly, I am doing my best!

This morning Isaac had unlocked the front door and said he wanted to go outside. I told him not right now, that we would be going outside later. I then went to get ready for the day. The kids were busying playing in their bounce house. . . so I thought.

I came back into the living room a short while later and the kids weren't in the living room. I turned off their slide, and noticed the door wasn't all of the way shut. My heart kind of skipped a beat, and I called in the house for Isaac. . . no reply. I immediately ran out the front door and didn't see either of my children in the front yard. I ran back inside and yelled for the kids, as I quickly looked through each room. . . not too panicked yet, but definitely getting worried.

I ran back outside and looked on the side of our house and the neighbors houses, and started running down the street and around the corner (our normal route on our daily walk). The kids were NOWHERE in sight. By now my heart was sinking and I started to hyperventilate a bit. I had grabbed my phone before heading out the door (somehow forgot shoes!) and called Mike and I started to cry and hyperventilate at the same time. He didn't understand what I was trying to say and I finally got out "Mike the front door was open and the kids are gone!" He quickly said he was on his way home.

By now I was running toward the park, because it is a daily route for us as well and they know the way. As I am running to the park, I called the Holgates (my "Texas Family") and let them know what was going on. . . after a few attempts they understood what I was saying. After that phone call I finally broke down and called the police. I kept having images of someone stopping and picking up two toddlers off the street. Scared does not even describe how I was feeling.

When I didn't see anyone at the park I made my way back home to wait for everyone who was meeting me there, and I was still on the phone with the 911 operator. I made one last attempt through the house, this time looking in cupboards and closets.

I get to Isaac's room and guess what I find. Isaac sitting in the corner behind his bookcase playing legos, and Ainsley sitting in the closet chewing on a pair of shoes and playing with something else. I started laughing and yelling and the poor lady on the phone kept saying "Mam, what's going on?" I said I found my kids and everyone is okay.

I have never been so relieved, not two minutes later Bryan (Holgate son) was at my house and Mike pulling up a minute later. Bryan was just as sweet as can be (he is like a brother to me), grabbed Isaac and wouldn't put him down. Just sat there holding him and told me how scared he was as he was driving over. Bryan is 19, and I love him to death. He then sat with me for a few hours, because I guess he thought I wasn't doing so well. Let's be honest I probably looked like a complete wreck. I really was relieved that I had found my children, and the shock of them being gone completely disappeared. Mike was worried too, hugged both of his kids and me, then headed back to work. I really am lucky he can be home in moments notice.

What a slew of emotions. Nervous. Scared. Terrified. Relieved. Mortified/embarrassed. Thankful. Really my week has been hard, and it's only Tuesday, but more importantly I have had MANY MANY prayers answered immediately and it's only Tuesday. I really am so blessed!

P.S. Yes Isaac was just as obedient as he always is. . . but I still feel it's time to put chain locks on my doors!

23 comments:

Chelsea said...

Brooke my dear....
Even though I knew the details of this from this am, I still had to re-read it and still am sick about it. I am soooooo glad everything is okay. Yes it's only Tuesday, but tomorrow is Wednesday, and then the week is half way through! :)GOOD LUCK!!!
Yea for such amazing tender mercies and miracles from our Heavenly Father.

Shannon said...

Oh Brooke. Don't feel bad. Preston left the house while I was taking a bath. I had to run outside with shampoo in my hair and hope that none of the neighbors saw me. I think you are a great mom! I am not sure if I am going to the reunion. I want to but I will be in Missouri. If my parents go, I am there. I just can't afford the gas on my own to go there and Missouri. Hopefully we can though.

Lara said...

I am sure nobody is judging you. It is so hard to be a mother of young children! It is impossible to watch them every second of the day, and if we did, we wouldn't get showered, our houses would be a mess, and we would be exhausted.

I have lost Bria before (over at ASU East) and I can't believe how completely hysterical I became in a matter of minutes. Sophie disappeared just yesterday because Chloe went out to the garage to get something she had left in the van and Sophie followed. Once I realized I hadn't seen or heard her for a while (maybe 5 minutes, but STILL! a lot can happen in 5 minutes!) I frantically searched and found her happily playing inside the van, which was thankfully in the garage, so no harm done.

Anyway, I think it happens to all of us. But yes, go ahead adn put those chains on your doors. It will definitely help your peace of mind!

Hooten Family said...

You are a good mom! Don't be too hard on yourself! It happens to the best of us. You know that it has happened to me. I am glad it turned out okay. We really need to get going on walks soon!

Aaron & Brittney (Dayton) Bond said...

Oh my gosh! I can't think of anything more scary! I am so glad everything was okay. You deserve a vacation after all that! :)

Marci Coombs said...

Okay...my heart was racing as I read BOTH your last 2 entires. Scary! So glad everything was ok. I can only imagine how you must've felt....you must be exhausted from all the emotional panic and worrying!!! Hope today is MUCH better for yoU!!!

Brandi Jo said...

That is good that everything turned out fine. I have had that same feeling before when Aiden has run away from me in a store and I couldn't hear him or see him anymore. The things our children put us through sometimes. But it does make us stronger people. Again, I am glad everything is ok!

The A Team said...

that's horrible. my oldest ran away from his grandparent's house when he was 2 and i didn't know (papa was "watching" him) until the neighbor knocked on the door and said he came to her house. i was in a panic and now even when they're being watched by someone else, i can't take my eyes off of them.

The Schneider Family said...

I think alot of parents have to deal with that some time or another (knock on wood for me). When I was about Isaacs age I went down to my Aunts house (just down the block), and fell asleep on the couch. My parents had looked for me for hours. Even my aunt was out looking and had no idea I was asleep at her house. The cops had been called and my mom was a nervous reck. When they found me she was feeling just the same way you felt.
I am so grateful everything is ok. That is my BIGGEST fear!
You are a wonderful mother!!

Lacey said...

Your not alone Brooke! Elodie can open the front door now and with soliciters coming by everyday my biggest fear is she will open the door for one of them while I am in the shower!
If it were up to me there would be about 10 deadbolts on our door!
You just say your prayers and know that Heavenly Father is watching out for our little ones!
Glad everything turned out okay!

Minharos said...

That's the worst. I think we've al llost our kids at some point in time- anyone who says otherwise is probably lying. Atticus ran away naked the other day. It happens =)

Matt-Whitney said...

Oh Bless your heart. Girl I would have done the same thing. And when something happnes like that so fast. Your heart sinks and your brain shuts off I know. Tell Mike to watch the kids for you and go take a nap or get a pedicure you deserve it. Kids will keep you going for sure. There is no stopping. Im going to come down and get some training lessons from you. Becasue you do such a good job and your are so calm about stuff.

Heidi said...

wow! You have had a tough week. that is so scary. Nothing is scarier than something involving your own kids. I am glad everything has turned out ok. Big HUGS!!!

Reisner's said...

that is a heartdropping moment. I have had that a time or two with Payson but unlike you we live on a farm so not as scary. We dont have the stranger danger here on the farm. Im glad you found them. What a good obedient boy Isaac is though. He never disobeyed you.

Audrey said...

I do this very same thing to myself--imagine the worst possible situation and then convince myself that it must've happened. Seriously, you had every reason to believe that something bad had happened. What a relief it didn't though. I think your last sentence said it best--get some chains and then you can have some peace of mind.

Kami said...

Holy crap I can't imagine how scared you were! Don't be embarassed. You did all of the things you should do if your kids were missing. Glad everything is ok and hope your week gets better.

Ben & Chay Fuller said...

Dang girl, I'm so sorry. I hope the rest of the week gets better :)

emily said...

oh my gosh...i was just so scared while i was reading this...that has happened to me before (my kids are pros at finding hiding spots)...ugh brooke...so scary!!!
so glad everything is fine though...and YES to the chains on the doors...it's so important!!

Adri said...

Brookie! Holy Canoli! My heart started racing just reading your story. I am so glad the kids were okay...I am sure Heavenly Father was looking out for them. It's funny because I think in the rare moments of life that we feel completely helpless, alone, terrified, etc., etc....that is when we turn to the help and guidance of our Heavenly Father the strongest...it's just a good thing this trial had a happy ending :)...ALSO it's a good thing you weren't missing more than your shoes when you frantically went looking for the kids...Now that could have been REAL embarassing! I can see the news headline now..."Half-Naked Mom Searches the Streets for Kids on the Run!"

Anyways...Love you Brookie!

P.S. Bucky is doing okay. She is just a little stressed with all the kids and the pregnancy.

Minharos said...

I hope the rest of your week has been quiet and uneventful!

Brandi Jo said...

Thanks! I just laid him on the bed @ the hospital and took a picture. It was funny because the lady came in to take his hospital pictures and said he does her best pictures on the hospital bed, but she did a horrible job. Hence my problem with most photographers. I did a way better job just messing around. I also have a huge problem when they don't match backgrounds with what people are wearing. They try to make things to busy. Anyways... thanks again! I like it too! :-)

The Tate's said...

Goodness, how scary!! I was nervous reading it and so glad that everything turned out ok. Jack has just started to learn how to open our front door so I have to remind myself to always make sure it is locked. Hope you guys are having a good day!!

Janette said...

Oh my gosh, I'd have had a heart attack, literally. I think that is every mom's worst nightmare. I'm so glad there was a simple happy ending. I thought you were going to find Isaac on the monkey bars or something. What a good little obedient kid!